No more tears to cry

Because no matter what happens, I know that everything will be okay in the end. I can still smile and be happy. I cannot let this thing ruin me. I know that there are better things in store for me, I know and i still believe that you're there to guide and protect me.

I am numb right now and i dont know what exactly Im feeling...all i can give you are my tears, they can explain everything.

I still have that hope, i still have that faith...and even though these things are happening i still want to thank you for everything. :)

How Appropriate

Stop Crying your heart out by Oasis

Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up... Come on... why you scared
You'll never change what been and gone

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

*yeah, i should. Gawd, January's making me all emo :)) haha. But yeah, i should just be happy and thankful :)

All i need is a little bit of Hope.

“We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected’s just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.”

“We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.”

Some days … the whole world seems upside down. And then somehow, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again.

“You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.”

“Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.”

-Quotes by Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy-

Life is not Short, It's just fast...Really Fast.

I feel like I'm in this big city where everything is in fast forward and I'm moving in slow motion. I feel like I'm lost ...and all of a sudden I feel like throwing up. I feel like nothing is right. I feel like I'm an ice slowly melting under the sun. I feel like a shard of glass with a blunt edge. I feel like I'm nothing. I feel like I'm drowning in deep water and no one's there to save me. I feel like there's this pressure because everyone's looking at me...waiting for me to cry some more. I feel like I'm looking at the horizon but in reality I'm just staring at a white wall. I feel like extraordinary yet ordinary at the same time. I feel like a profound word with no meaning. I feel like I've been here before...I feel like I'm in a marathon with no finish line...

...and somehow, I want to go back to the starting line where things were still right, but I can't. I'm already here and I've come this far. I have to keep running even if there's no end. I have to...I have to keep moving forward even if they're faster than me, even if I know I'm gonna lose in the end. I have to...I just have to.

I'm getting fat because of you

Takipsilim - The Filipino Version of Twilight

When I first heard about Takipsilim (which is the soon-to-be Filipino version of Twilight [The worldwide hit book series written by Stephanie Meyer]) I was a bit shocked. I didn't see that coming. I mean, twilight is such a big thing and i can't really imagine ABS remaking it. I've read a lot of blogs about it (especially perezhilton) and most of them are so angry, furious, exaggerating and overreacting. There was one...i don't remember if its was a blog or a forum but it said something like I hate being a filipino, it's such a shame and that I can't wait for its whole race to die. Other blogs and forums say things like (not exact words, I'm basing it from my memory. haha) "Im gonna migrate" "I'm so embarrased" "baduy" "kadiri" "annoying" "It's gonna ruin the whole thing" "it will not give justice to the novel" "for sure the quality's bad" and bla bla bla.

After reading so many hateblogs...I have to say that I'm quite disappointed not because we (yeah, im pinoy :)) are copying another american film and we don't have originality, I am disappointed because Filipinos themselves don't even know how to receive this whole remaking thing objectively. Yeah, I said that "i can't really imagine ABS remaking it." but can't we give it a shot?

Most of us are saying that we don't have originality and that all we know is copy and copy and copy. In my opinion I think that there's really nothing wrong with ABS copying twilight. Americans copied asian movies too like shutter and the ring. What i can see here is that we, the Filipinos are afraid that this remaking might come out sucky and shameful knowing that we aren't really that good compared to how hollywood makes movies (duhh). Let's face it, compared to Hollywood movies we are sooo down there. But hey! our movies are not THAT bad. Our country is poor and ABS can't afford all those film stuff they use in America but at least the TV station is trying its best to cope with them. The best thing the audience can do is to support them.

(I think that the reason why most of the filipino TV stations in the country is copying american and other films is that the filipinos themselves are unpatriotic. They say that filipino movies are baduy. Most of the people I know don't even watch filipino TV series and movies. C'mon, do you watch Anne curtis' Dyosa? So I'm guessing that TV stations are imitating american films so they can attract people to watch (since the films are based on something american.)

In my opinion, a lot of Filipinos still don't watch Filipino films/series even if they are original. They just don't...simply because they're made by Filipinos.

...aND SERIOUSLY! do you guys think that they're gonna translate Forks to tinidor/s? :)) I don't think that filipinos are that stupid (unless they're trying to make it a comedy).

*sigh* Oh! and some say that it will not give justice to the book, hello?! The original one didn't also :)).

Another problem is the casting. People say that Filipino actors/actresses are not good enough and that no one can be Edward Cullen. hello?! The original cast wasn't that good also! and Robert Pattinson is so not Edward Cullen.

But i have to admit...I'm also nervous that the filipino version might come out ugly, but whatever! I bet the people behind Takipsilim are gonna do their best (they have to because they're gonna spend millions/billions for that) to present something good to the audience. If it comes out ugly? well, its fine for me because one thing is for sure: that the director, the actors, and everyone else responsible and part of Takipsilim did their best.
...and if their best wasn't good enough for you? It's not their fault.

*ok! i was soooooo into it :))*

Whatever Happened in Shang Stays in Shang

Happy Birthday Cea, Alex, and Bernice!
Celebrated their birthdays in Edsa Shangri-la with Myky, lumlum, Nicole, david, and moi! SUPAHH FUNN! so I can't tell much, haha. 'Coz "Whatever Happened in Shang Stays in Shang"
Guys, we should have another one and this time we should ALL stay sober...NAT! :P
Cea, you're so funny. I was so entertained wahah :P Bernice, ohmehgesh wild 0.0. Nicole, WE made you CARE! next time we'll make you cry haha. Lumlum, you just totally forgot everything that happened, you were sabog. Alex, woah! haha you practiced! no fair :P David, yeah sober person.
I swear i'll never forget that night! :P I had an awesome night and awesome food! haha.

pool area (Nicole, Alex, Bernice, Lumlum)

Dinner at Sumosam

We had so much food :)

The Spa area called CHI in shang

Alternative Christmas '08

Leanne and I had to take care of two inseparable kids but this was the best alt. Christmas ever. I had so much fun taking care of those two and chasing them up and down the stairs. Leanna's partner was Abba and my partner was Pope (His real name is Juan Carlos but he told me that he wants to be a pope so people call him pope, cutie :''>). This year we had stations with our group, C5. The first station was Christmas card making. This was my card..

haha.. :|

Pope wasn't able to make me one 'coz i dunno, i think he didn't know what to write...yeah, he wasted more than 5 papers thinking of a design. But it's ok, at least he tried, haha.
ADR's kid was sooo talented ok! his card design was this...

...Sorry na. :) that's a nice card for such a small kid. Parehas silang magaling magdrawing . :P

Second station was the CatWalk. We had to choose one kid and dress her/him up with the materials provided. So the materials were crepe papers and newspapers.

Meet Ivy..she's so cute :)) with her bag (which icia and i made :P) She didn't win though...

He did...ahh the name's Alfred, i think :))

3rd station was the Christmas dance..yeah :P Abba (Leanne's kid) was soo into it.
4th station (the last one) Cookie making :)

Pope with his cookie :) Abba with his cookie :)

So there! haha. fun! :) We had lunch then we gave them gifts...then, goodbye!






(i look stupid in this picture :| :)))
I love pope even though he doesn't like me (I think). haha.

Suicide na nga lang, Epic fail pa rin.

After Lala and Alex left...

Me: where are you going now?
Lumlum: I'll commit suicide
Me: Where?
Lumlum: I'll go sa rooftop [of G4]
Me: you can't..you need to pay pa for a room in Ascott...
Lumlum: Fine! window na lang.
Me: Walang windows ang mall remember?
Lumlum: arghh *walks away*
Me: haha.

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea.

I don't know what's happening to me. So i just ate :)