Thank you, Mushrooms!

At the start of this Semester, I honestly wanted to crash when I found out that we were reshuffled because that meant no more Triso group. I was so dejected. I didn't want to adjust to another set of RLE group since I find it very hard to establish camaraderie and the fact that I have the tendency to compare them to my previous groupmates. Well, things happen for a reason and through the many changes that's happened to me, I've learnt not question. The answer will always be unveiled at the end anyways.

To Diane, Tags, Ei, Lovely, Hans, Monique, Allen, Pao, Abby and Rhiz, I would like you guys to know how eternally grateful and thankful I am for the times we've spent together throughout all four rotations. There were misunderstandings and we got mad at each other, but that's normal right? At the end of the day, the most important thing is that we all passed and the group is still one. :)

Thanks for the support and for being there during the all nighters. It was a tough semester and there were new rotations but we all got through it. Goodjob, mushies! If I ever did something to hurt any of you, it wasn't my intention to. I'm sorry. Know that I love you and the experiences we had in the Delivery room, nursery, 5th rec and community are always going to be worth remembering. :>

SV. Study vibes.

I'm supposed to be concentrating on my ncm NOTES because there's a quiz tomorrow. Plus, I haven't started studying for physics and pharma which both covers two topics. I'm a dead meat. I don't even know why i'm blogging right now. Hmm, let's just say i'm trying to sharpen my saw in 15 minutes (not helping though). Anyways, im stressed and i don't know why because when I look at my planner, there's nothing really to stress about. My finals schedule isn't even as cruel as before. There's just one exam in one day soooo I have no idea why I'm stressed. Lots of quizzes tomorrow but that has become a usual thing already so i'm ruling that out of the stress list.

Whatevs, break's over. Back to NCM. :|

May Angels Lead you in

On March 12, 2011, My professor in Anatomy and Microbiology passed away. He was one of the greatest teachers I've ever had.

Please pray for Dr. Norbert Licad Alfonso M.D., DPSOHNS.,FASOHNS.,MBA-H. May he rest in peace.

oh oh oh to touch and feel a girl's ... ah heaven! ;P . We love you, sir! :)

Living it up

This is an excerpt from my PMSD book report.

Now, I’m a student nurse going through duties, case studies, ward classes and a whole bunch of stress and maybe – just maybe I’m starting to fall in love with the course. I’ve tried asking friends if they could see me as a nurse in the future and most of them say that they don’t or can be. I never actually got an affirmative “yes” to that question. Most of them say that I’m more of a person on the commanding side – someone who is independent and can work alone but still be excellent. I’ve thought about what others say and it made me realize that they say I can’t become a nurse because the see nursing in a totally different angle. Nursing, as how others perceive it – is just the act of following doctor’s orders. But in reality, it’s very, very far from that. Actually, with the subjects and the things that we are learning right now, it’s already like we’re studying medicine itself. I honestly have been thinking twice if this profession is really for me because the work load of being a nurse is more than what I can take. Being a student nurse is tiring – it drains up all your energy and it entails a lot of sacrifices. There are even times when I wonder what reward I get from all of this. Nursing isn’t even a highly paid job in the Philippines.

In the story, Tilda has inspired me to keep on moving forward and to just go on. Sometimes, life gives you trials and challenges which may seem so impossible to solve but one way or another you get through them anyway. Then, at one point in time you’ll realize that these are only tests to make you better. Tilda has taught me that nursing is a rewarding personal endeavour. Nursing doesn’t give you the bucks and the golds. But through the service of caring for people who are complete strangers to you and being at their sides at most difficult time, that’s when your minds open to the fact that fame and fortune are incomparable to the self fulfilment and love you get from nursing. Moreover, Tilda has inspired to be hopeful. For nurses, suffering and death aren’t form of hopelessness. For us, providing comfort, promoting their well being and not treating them any less of a human is what makes our job hopeful. More importantly, she inspired me that in nursing, it’s all about loving the work you do because when you learn how to love all else transpires.

Midterm Week

I really cannot find the words or construct the right sentences that would describe my midterm week. Last week's midterm was probably the toughest out of all the stressful weeks of my life. It was my very first to experience just an hour and a half of sleep for 2 consecutive days (though I know that the only person liable for this is myself due to my inability to manage my time wisely).

I didn't really study that hard though, most of my time was spent making kwento with my brother or eating my midnight snack for more than an hour and dancing in front of the mirror for another hour to get my energy up (but ending up getting tired after) then another 30 minutes thinking if i should just sleep first and study later. So yeah, as you can see I procrastinate...a lot.

It as been my problem since forever, I cannot seem to find my "studying time." I know that my brain is at its maximum at midnight but my body just wants to sleep during that time. So I dont really know how to fix this problem haha. I hate the fact that there's no 24 hours coffee shop in sucat. I can concentrate in coffee stores even if there are a lot of people...i dont know, it's the environment, the ambiance and the fact that no one bothers to disturb you.

Anyways, midterm week is done. Can't believe I survived. haha. I'm very thankful for my friends, like SUPER! as in I wouldn't have survived without them. :) Even though we were stressed, we just kept on laughing during our group study at Starbucks. SATURDAY WAS ONE OF THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!!!! :> As in john and I were just laughing for 15 minutes non stop and it's been a while since i laughed like that so yeahh...ang saya! :))

On our way to Amici. John was pretending to be a statue.

EATING is the best stress reliever.

John studying for nutrition

Mapagpanggap :>

okay, eya. Ikaw na smart.

A date with Marga

With Midterms just around the corner and left and right submissions of Case studies, Concept maps and Nursing Care plans, It's been really hard for me to meet up with my first year college barkada (because our sections were reshuffled last year). I mean we rarely hang out and sometimes we don't even see each other in school.

So last Tuesday and Wednesday, I finally got to talk to Marga (We haven't talked for the longest time). We were at SB for 3 hours both days we never got bored. Even if we aren't really the type of friends who would sit down somewhere and share stories or talk over the phone every night.

( I missed you Margs! This was like our ultimate bonding experience haha! but seriously! I like sharing kwentos with you. )

I was reviewing for Pharmacology Unit test while Marga was talking about her love life. HAHAHA! We don't talk about the same things but we manage to understand each other :)

Plus, thank you to the Barista (the name's JP, if i'm not mistaken) for giving us free short peppermint mocha! YEY!

Me and Margs!

I had See's with me and Marga had carbonara (no picture though)

I also got to watch our old chem lab videos during first year on Marga's phone and I terribly miss those days! :(

Although I've been stressing on a lot of things these past few days, I realized that there are really lots of things to be happy about everyday! So smile :)

Studying is awesome :|

This photo was taken Jan. 5 at Starbucks while I was reading and writing down notes about Maternal and Child Health Nursing.

I haven't been blogging because there's no internet here at home...and I'm on the veranda right now since there's Globe Tattoo signal here. kawawa :(

School's dragging...as always but oh well, I have no choice but to deal with it anyways...

Gotta kick ass this week. Midterm's just around the corner and I have to get my old studious nerdy antisocial self back in the scene and make it last for at least a week :))))

Head over feet

Have you ever had this feeling of having this great passion for studying? Like you just want to grab a book or an educational journal/magazine and read them from cover to cover and still yearn for more information?

I always have that feeling. Actually, i get that every morning of my life because i'm always (well, i'd like to believe that I am) driven to strive for my best. But wait, don't think of me as the smart-all-knowing student of the class... because i'm the exact opposite. I'm one of those students who nods in class and pretends that i'm interested in the lesson. I doodle on my planner rather than writing down notes. I'm one of the loudest in class and i sit at the back of the room so I can sleep. Yeah, that's pretty much how this semester has been and i'm quite disappointed with myself (duhh? who wouldn't?!). So, what exactly happened to the feeling of wanting to study?...As I've said, i get that feeling every morning but for some weird reason, when i enter the classroom...the feeling just fades away. It sucks, really. Because i expect myself to be a good student everyday but at the end of the day, i just get disappointed with myself. It's like a mood swing...y'know when you're at the height of something then it suddenly falls down and it annoys you because you want to go back but can't. It's tragic. AND IT HAPPENS TO ME EVERYDAY. Imagine trying to start a day off with this feeling of "this is a new day im gonna learn a lot of things" but the moment when you see school, you just wanna run back home.

I really don't know what's happening to meeeeeeeeeeee. I used to love going to school because i love learning new things. I used to love sitting in front of the class and trying my best to listen to the professor no matter how boring the lesson is. I want to be like that again. I want to have that energy and passion to go to school and learn.

Right now I feel like im going nowhere. I feel like a Mercedes-Benz being ignored. I know that i have so much in me and i can do more...i can achieve more.

I need an inspiration or something that will motivate me to start again. I need that passion back.

(I know it's Christmas break and talking about school isn't really a good idea because i'm supposed to relax and chill, but i can't help it! BECAUSE I FEEL SO USELESS AND STUPID.)

I'm not a Human Being

I wanted to start this blog entry with "Today..." But for some reason, i found it unsuitable and i've been starting entries with "todays" so for a change, why dont we start with YEHEY!

YEHEY!

k, cut.

I'll just use "today"

Today... well, i didnt like today. My morning didnt start out right. I mean, i was expecting it to be all fun and ...basta it just didnt turn out how i expected it to be. Anyway, i've probably tweeted "I miss school" several times during the break and efff my life, i TAKE EVERYTHING BACK. sembreak please hug me again! :(( Orientation just dragged me down and I know im supposed to be all positive and have this great outlook in life and just live life to the fullest blah blah. But this is just one of those days when I want to be negative. I know it's not going to bring me any good but i think that it's also nice to be down and sad once in a while. Dont ask me why.

Our RLE groups were reshuffled today and I'm with a new set of people. No more trisoGroup this semester. And it's so depressing because I want to be with that group til fourth year, because somehow, they bring out the best in me (no chos!). I even got teary-eyed this morning because i was the only one separated from the barkada. John, pat and arcee are in one group while i'm in a different one. I'm not saying that I don't like my new groupmates, it's just that I love my first sem RLE group so much that i'm now having a hard time accepting the fact that i'm in a new group. It's hard to imagine my duties without my daily dose of trisoness :(

Right now I'm hoping for the best and even though i'm having a hard time absorbing everything that's happened... I know that i'll get through this...because i always do....

....i dont know how but i will.

I can.

Brunchhhhh Crunch!

First of all..HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEV! We love you so much kuya! haha.

Anyway, we finally had our TrisoBrunch at shakeys two days ago and it was so much fun being with the trisogroup again. I can't wait for our next duty! I'm so up for the whole baliwness and randomness next sem! I miss franzel and sep though because they didnt join us and of courseeee our trisoMommy!

Cheers to Freedom from school!

I Love you Guys! :">

TrisoKids!

At first, i honestly didnt like my group because the only one i knew was arcee. I even remember telling arcee that we will stick together no matter what because i dont think that this group would be the type of group that we are now.

Sev, Arcee, Xy, Kim, Char, Love, Lovely, Maria, Ei and Sep, You have no idea how much I love you guys! I probably woudn't be as happy right now if i didn't have you guys in the group. I mean our randomness and cazyness and trisoness just made us closer to each other. I'm super thankful for our community duty because that was when we got super close to each other - yeah, paghinahabol natin yung fishball and mangga o pag naghahanap tayo nag isaw pero sa bakery lang pala tayo mapupunta, at san ka may IR pa :P But I'm more thankful for our lying in duty because that's when we ALL became trisos :>

I love how we all just bring out our baons and have like a foodfest every now and then...I love how we all crave for banana cues and turon, I love how we all love stick-o! Everything was just so funny in lying in...

with the labor dance,

with the triso board, pag nagreregress tayo,

when we all have that maria attitude, when we bully each other,

when we made our family thing,

when ma'am G. would join us,

when we would all wait for siesta so we can all sleep,

when we would play bumpcars with the office chairs,

when sep would laugh "NYAYAYAYYA",

when maria would kill aedes egypti and assess them and just say that their paralyzed "PROMISE!",

When we would all fight for the triso board,

pag nagmumura si lovely hahahah

and just basically everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But what i love the most about our group is the fact that our friendship and closeness is not just seen when were on duty but also in school when we have classes. I also like it when we would surprise our groupmate when it's his/her birthday!

Anyway, I just wanted to say that i love our trisoGroup and i cannot imagine what would happen if one of us leaves that's why i was supper happy when we all passed microbio! I hope that next sem we're all in the same group because nothing beats our RLE group. We've had so much fun together as a group and i want that to last foreverrrrrr! I love you, Triso Kids!

Hi Sir, I'm a Student Nurse!

Second year is when we officially start our duties in different areas for four rotations with our RLE groupmates (AND I SUPER LOVE THEM!).

Our group was assigned first in the out patient department. Our main task was to monitor the vital signs of the patients. It seems so simple for you but when you're in the area and everything's so busy...with parents looking for their kids, stretchers on the floor, nonstop paging, children crying, nurses going here and there...well, those make the whole situation complicated. Me and Arcee, my partner, were assigned in three different areas - pedia, medicine and surgery. Among those 3, I liked pedia the most. Honestly, I never liked children but monitoring their VS and staying in the pedia room for 4 hours made me love 'em. They're so cute, especially when they try to grab my uniform or hold onto my hand while taking their temperatures. But what really touched me in pedia were the mothers and how much they showed their love for their children. I had this case where the baby had all these illnesses and everything seemed like falling out of place but when I interviewed the mother, there was no hint of weakness, of damage.. of hopelessness. I remember her telling me something like "mahal ko ang anak ko at gagawin ko lahat para magamot siya" She was such a hero because if i were in her position, i probably would've given up....but as the cliche goes "there's nothing like the love of a mother"

OPD was the duty i saw myself in as a nurse because there, i encountered people from different walks of life...and i realized that in every minute, there are so many people who are fighting for the lives of their loved ones even when every way seems so impossible and insanely stupid to take, but they choose to take it anyway because of faith.

Second rotation was in the nursery and the babiessss are too cute for my liiiiiiiife! Im so ready to be a mother...NAT! but seriously, it was like my first time to put on diaper, bathe the babies, put on clothing hahaha. Before the duty, i was super scared for this rotation since i dont like handling babies because they're so fragile and im scared i might break them or something. Nothing much happened during this rotation but i still loved it because then i learned that life is the most precious thing in the world! And one dad was even teary eyed watching his baby from the nursery window and that was beyond the word awwww can describe. :>

Third rotation was in the community. At first it was kind of boring because there weren't any patients and all we did was EAT - ftw the mangga and bagoong and gulaman :> When we did our home visits that's when everything started to change. We walked and walked and walked and interviewed people on the streets just to get a good case until we got one with a rheumatic heart disease. Group case in the community is the most toxic because it included the whole family plus we had to make a floor plan of the house and the genogram. Home visits were very tiring, i mean just the 'walking itself is tiring already....anddddd the heat was intolerable. But it was a good experience! In the community, I learned that life is full of ups and downs, of survival, of change, of goodlucks and badlucks....I realized how lucky i am of a person to have all the things i need to live when some dont even have clothes to wear. So, everyday, I try my best to be satisfied with what i have because when I actually think of it, I already have so much for myself.

Fourth and last rotation was in the lying in. This was the rotation i was waiting for because there's action, there's the blood and its the closest i can get to feeling the "surgery room" or something hahaha. This rotation turned our to be the best! It's because of the CI, the groupmates and the experiences we had. Sure, there were boring moments especially those times when we had no patients at all but the group made it still fun! Anyway, my first lying in experience was WOAHHHHHH! like really blood kung blood, episiotomy kung episiotomy, suture kung suture! HAHHA! Everything was just totally new. It's so funny and amazing when we would cheer and pray for the baby to come out already and we would clap our hands when the baby is already out. *labor danceeeee* At first, we were so grossed out with the set up but we got used to it...like the mother is already bearing down and the midwife was like shouting "mrs, bat wala kang dalang damiiiiit?" i didn't know if i'm supposed to laugh or to get mad. I mean hello, she's already in so much pain tas you're gonna shout at her pa. It's mean at first but later we realized ..ahh ok it's a normal thing.

Everything went by so fassssst. I can't believe i survived 4 group cases and three individual cases. I can't believe i was able to go through 4 ward classes. I can't believe i was able to breathe even with the tight schedule. I can't believe that i passed all four rotations. I can't believe that i'm starting to love nursing. i can't believe that i'm gaining so much life lessons in my duties. I can't believe that im appreciating life so muchhhh now and that i can CONFIDENTLY SAY THAT IM LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST!

So far so good! :>

hello second sem, i'm gonna rock you!

Breakfast at Tiffany's

(Because ive been listening to that song for two weeks now and im still not over it.)

Anyway, It's sembreak and im loving every second of it - yes, even just lying in bed without thinking of anything school related is already considered as a part of "the good life." It seems way too mababaw but after those sleepless nights of studying for microbio, working on group and individual cases, tiring (but fun!) duties, no weekends and information overload lectures...well i guess, i learned to appreciate those little moments of peace and quiet and just being myself again.

I've missed blogging. It was part of my stress reliever before but second year first sem. just kicked my ass and i totally didnt have the time to do anything "stress relieving" ...except for laughing with ze friends (which I'm very thankful for!). So here I am, back again to blogging and i know I have no entries for like 2 months but i hope the upcoming ^ blog entries will suffice for the missed ones because i will make them super heartfelt :P

We're gonna party like it's 2012

yeah ok I know i havent blogged since foreverrrr... sorry im just really lazy and i'd like to spend my free time doing some other things like updating my ipod, catching up with my friends, drinking coffee in starbucks while writing down random things on my planner etc.

and im here right now just to say that hahahah!

and im living life right now, i can feel it.

LIVE, LOVE AND LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH

I'm living the "cortado" life and im actually liking it! I might not be excelling in school as much as last year but i know that im better now and not being wayyy too serious in school makes me appreciate life more.

(and to you.... thank you for your smile because...just because)

When I get older, I will be Stronger

Yesterday was my first day as a second year college student, YEHEY......nat :|

My schedule was 6am to 6pm. That was 12 hours and it just tortured me. I just sat there and listened to my Clinical Instructors the whole day. They were teaching us how to take care of newborns, procedures to be done in the lying in etc. The procedures sound cool because we are actually gonna do them when we're on our duties but the whole process of teaching totally bored me. I just cannot explain the immensity of the boredom i experienced. OK, maybe i'm exaggerating here but i don't know. I didn't sense the PASSION from my teachers which was probably why they didn't get my attention. Everything was just so crappy yesterday. I know it's partly my fault too because I kinda didn't want to listen and the lessons were ... dragging.

I hope next week's gonna be better to the point that I would actually look forward to the next meeting. POSITIVITY!

Til summer comes around

Holyyyy!!

I can't believe my last post was about El Clasico and that was last month! oh my, I haven't touched my blog for like two weeks? This is what summer classes do.

Well, it's a bit fun though because i get to see friends in school and have kwentuhans and all but I'm just missing out on basically everything that is related to summer. I miss my midnight dose of football, the beach, the pool, the bikinis, the road trips, the bum moments, the movie marathons, catching up with other friends...

hay nako! leche yan!!! basta, live the present moment na!!! diyos ko po, bahala ka na sa akin!!! :((

SUMMER

.............classes


suck...............



big time.


:|

Before I study for Ana

The last two weeks of school is going to be one HELL of a roller coaster ride and right now I'm not on the vertical loop so i get the chance to blog. YAHOO!

My sister is right, I think I'm being too hard on myself. Like how i was so annoyed at the thesis defense because it wasn't as hard as i though it'd be. I mean, If I'm like an ordinary student I'd be happy about that, right? But I'm not. Well for one...I really worked hard on that thesis (oh my gosh, those two sleepless-ish nights) and i needed something to challenge it. but the defense was useless so no..no challenge.

But seriously, I'm not all that TENSE AND WORRIED ABOUT STUFF. I just simply CARE about things. AMP! that didn't make sense! haha

I don't know what to blog about anymore but the gist is that I'M MISSING OUT ON LIFE AND I JUST WANT TO GO OUT OF TOWN AND FORGET ABOUT NURSING. I know i took the word nursing lightly when i was in high school BUT man! everytime i hear that word i just wanna scream. The stress of the course can kill me anytime.

So i just hope i can survive this week and next week. I don't know what's gonna happen to my finals. Just thinking about the RLE return demo gives me the goosebumps, It's like my worst nightmare the only difference is that I know it's gonna happen.

I'm starting to really DISCERN if i should still pursue medicine.

So, It's all about God bless, goodlucks, brain, coffee and food for next week.

Wakaranai

i CAN'T BELIEVE NIHONGO IS MY LOWEST SUBJECT HOYY MAHYYY GOSHHH...HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LEARN NIHONGO BEFORE THE FINALS?!!!! DEADS NA MEEE!!1 :((