You always end a month with a party

Happy happy happy 18th birthday Pam! Thanks for the invite. I had fun! you were soooo cute! haha :)

Pj, Marga, Jeca, Kyle, Lysa, karmina, and alex...thanks for the company!

JUST LIKE A CIRCUS!

I'm supposed to be doing CLE reflections

This day was a roller coaster ride :)
Thank You English class for always inspiring me to live life to the fullest, haha. During English class today Mrs. Villalon asked us to write an affirmation to the person we would like to thank the most. I really grabbed this opportunity because I've been wanting to affirm the person i affirmed, haha. I super love her! I received two affirmations from the most unexpected people from my class. To P (feeling gossip girl, haha), I also love reviewing before math tests with you. You make me confident too. Thanks for believing in me, even if I'm not that good in math. More reviews to come! It's funny pa how we review in fromt of the whole class sa blackboard :)). To S, that was totally unexpected! ..coz, i thought you hated me! hahah. Thanks for the affirmation, you totally made my day today. Thanks also for the hug during CAT. Hope we get to know each other more. haha thanks pinoy play?! I love you back, front diagonal mate.
I recited a lot in English today, esecially during the agree or disagree part of the class. Oh! no one failed the English UT! :) good job! This day was really woah great! I cried during physics though. College problems plus the headache from math = kawawa sydney. Pau, thank you for your mini paper. "Be happy, Syd :>" aww pauuuu! thanks you have no idea how much that made me smile na dthanks for the tissue also! haha. ohhh! Thank you to all my seatmates! I love you guys forever; Kara, Pau, Bea E., Sasa, Roxy, Ria, Alex, and Dana (haha, ok dana's special mention, she's not my seatmate!) You guys made me soooo HAPPY and ALIVE, coz I'v ebeen feeling dead the whole week. I promise, to be more optimistic everyday!
Ok, that's it. haha. I have to do na my reflection papers :| :))

No more tears to cry

Because no matter what happens, I know that everything will be okay in the end. I can still smile and be happy. I cannot let this thing ruin me. I know that there are better things in store for me, I know and i still believe that you're there to guide and protect me.

I am numb right now and i dont know what exactly Im feeling...all i can give you are my tears, they can explain everything.

I still have that hope, i still have that faith...and even though these things are happening i still want to thank you for everything. :)

How Appropriate

Stop Crying your heart out by Oasis

Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up... Come on... why you scared
You'll never change what been and gone

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

*yeah, i should. Gawd, January's making me all emo :)) haha. But yeah, i should just be happy and thankful :)

All i need is a little bit of Hope.

“We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected’s just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.”

“We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.”

Some days … the whole world seems upside down. And then somehow, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again.

“You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.”

“Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.”

-Quotes by Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy-

Life is not Short, It's just fast...Really Fast.

I feel like I'm in this big city where everything is in fast forward and I'm moving in slow motion. I feel like I'm lost ...and all of a sudden I feel like throwing up. I feel like nothing is right. I feel like I'm an ice slowly melting under the sun. I feel like a shard of glass with a blunt edge. I feel like I'm nothing. I feel like I'm drowning in deep water and no one's there to save me. I feel like there's this pressure because everyone's looking at me...waiting for me to cry some more. I feel like I'm looking at the horizon but in reality I'm just staring at a white wall. I feel like extraordinary yet ordinary at the same time. I feel like a profound word with no meaning. I feel like I've been here before...I feel like I'm in a marathon with no finish line...

...and somehow, I want to go back to the starting line where things were still right, but I can't. I'm already here and I've come this far. I have to keep running even if there's no end. I have to...I have to keep moving forward even if they're faster than me, even if I know I'm gonna lose in the end. I have to...I just have to.