Goodbye to everything

I totally didn't blog the whole summer.

I didn't touch my planner the whole summer.

dunno. I feel like im being this totally different person and i guess I'm losing my love for blogging.

Shoot. i don't know who I am anymore. I'm being a rebel for no reason.

There's nothing happening in my life.

SV. Study vibes.

I'm supposed to be concentrating on my ncm NOTES because there's a quiz tomorrow. Plus, I haven't started studying for physics and pharma which both covers two topics. I'm a dead meat. I don't even know why i'm blogging right now. Hmm, let's just say i'm trying to sharpen my saw in 15 minutes (not helping though). Anyways, im stressed and i don't know why because when I look at my planner, there's nothing really to stress about. My finals schedule isn't even as cruel as before. There's just one exam in one day soooo I have no idea why I'm stressed. Lots of quizzes tomorrow but that has become a usual thing already so i'm ruling that out of the stress list.

Whatevs, break's over. Back to NCM. :|

To the limit

I PROMISE TO STUDY RIGHT WHEN I GET HOME AFTER BEAT THE ODDS TONIGHT.

NO EXCUSES.

G? G!

:> :> :>

Yes, Katy Perry, I feel like a plastic bag,

I log in on Tumblr and see all these pictures of skinny, beautiful people....

I'm envious because i'm not as thin or as pretty

I'm sad because i can never be one.

I'm depressed because i feel insecure.

I log in on Tumblr and read all these quotes telling me to be happy with how I look...that I'm good enough.



See, the irony isn't making me feel better.


p.s. I have nothin against Tumblr. :)

Head over feet

Have you ever had this feeling of having this great passion for studying? Like you just want to grab a book or an educational journal/magazine and read them from cover to cover and still yearn for more information?

I always have that feeling. Actually, i get that every morning of my life because i'm always (well, i'd like to believe that I am) driven to strive for my best. But wait, don't think of me as the smart-all-knowing student of the class... because i'm the exact opposite. I'm one of those students who nods in class and pretends that i'm interested in the lesson. I doodle on my planner rather than writing down notes. I'm one of the loudest in class and i sit at the back of the room so I can sleep. Yeah, that's pretty much how this semester has been and i'm quite disappointed with myself (duhh? who wouldn't?!). So, what exactly happened to the feeling of wanting to study?...As I've said, i get that feeling every morning but for some weird reason, when i enter the classroom...the feeling just fades away. It sucks, really. Because i expect myself to be a good student everyday but at the end of the day, i just get disappointed with myself. It's like a mood swing...y'know when you're at the height of something then it suddenly falls down and it annoys you because you want to go back but can't. It's tragic. AND IT HAPPENS TO ME EVERYDAY. Imagine trying to start a day off with this feeling of "this is a new day im gonna learn a lot of things" but the moment when you see school, you just wanna run back home.

I really don't know what's happening to meeeeeeeeeeee. I used to love going to school because i love learning new things. I used to love sitting in front of the class and trying my best to listen to the professor no matter how boring the lesson is. I want to be like that again. I want to have that energy and passion to go to school and learn.

Right now I feel like im going nowhere. I feel like a Mercedes-Benz being ignored. I know that i have so much in me and i can do more...i can achieve more.

I need an inspiration or something that will motivate me to start again. I need that passion back.

(I know it's Christmas break and talking about school isn't really a good idea because i'm supposed to relax and chill, but i can't help it! BECAUSE I FEEL SO USELESS AND STUPID.)

I'm not a Human Being

I wanted to start this blog entry with "Today..." But for some reason, i found it unsuitable and i've been starting entries with "todays" so for a change, why dont we start with YEHEY!

YEHEY!

k, cut.

I'll just use "today"

Today... well, i didnt like today. My morning didnt start out right. I mean, i was expecting it to be all fun and ...basta it just didnt turn out how i expected it to be. Anyway, i've probably tweeted "I miss school" several times during the break and efff my life, i TAKE EVERYTHING BACK. sembreak please hug me again! :(( Orientation just dragged me down and I know im supposed to be all positive and have this great outlook in life and just live life to the fullest blah blah. But this is just one of those days when I want to be negative. I know it's not going to bring me any good but i think that it's also nice to be down and sad once in a while. Dont ask me why.

Our RLE groups were reshuffled today and I'm with a new set of people. No more trisoGroup this semester. And it's so depressing because I want to be with that group til fourth year, because somehow, they bring out the best in me (no chos!). I even got teary-eyed this morning because i was the only one separated from the barkada. John, pat and arcee are in one group while i'm in a different one. I'm not saying that I don't like my new groupmates, it's just that I love my first sem RLE group so much that i'm now having a hard time accepting the fact that i'm in a new group. It's hard to imagine my duties without my daily dose of trisoness :(

Right now I'm hoping for the best and even though i'm having a hard time absorbing everything that's happened... I know that i'll get through this...because i always do....

....i dont know how but i will.

I can.

This and that

Not so much blog posts this month, sarrreh :( school's been a bitch and im not really in the mood. So to just add another post for January...here comes the randomness.

*Putamen! I <3 Anatomy
- I had to treat Eya a venti java chip coz i lost the bet
- I argue with Arcee almost every 30 minutes but I still love her! Great minds fight a lot!
- I made this bet with aya and john; the person who gets the highest average for midterms has to treat the lowest. (Starbucks, 'f course)
- I also have this bet with Gador, Marga, Eya, and Kaycee; the person who gets the highest score for NCM has to treat the lowest.
- I save more money when i was in high school. what happened to me?
- I hate my nihongo subject! I do not understand anything.
- Barcelona remains undefeated in la liga, while LFC (EPL) is struggling to get into the top 4. I still love the reds :>
-Arsenal and Man U tonight. Fabregas! :> <3

*putamen is a round structure located at the base of the forebrain

Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad

RTR acquaintance party 2009 at A. venue hall.
sorry for the image quality. do not ever hand me a sony digi cam. EVER.
My canon's in Malaysia :|

i missed the Tags trip :|
and i've been crying the whole day.
I DO NOT NEED A FREAKIN REST DAY. NO THANKS :|
MAJOR BV, K?

Hello

I'M
BORED
:|

Btw, I'm abandoning plurk coz I fell in love with twitter. Follow me, kay?!

This is not NORMAL.

ARSENAL V MAN U
So, i watched the game 30 minutes ago and hell, that was like amazzzing but not as awesome as the semi final, chelsea-liverpool game. Aggregate arsenal 1-4 Man U. I hope Barcelona joins them in Rome. :P

It's not normal for a person to like Man. U and Liverpool at the same time. They're rivals :)) duhh. I'm not a united fan but I'm really starting to like the team. :| WEIIRRRDDD Oh well. haha I'm a liverpool and barca fan forever :P :P I liked liverpool from the beginning because Torres and kuyt are there and barca coz of messi and henry.

I can't help but agree with Gerrard when he said that the only thing you can hate about C. Ronaldo is that he's good. He is, like woah but i just really don't like him coz i find him very angas, well actually most football players are really like that but i just cannot find a reason to like ronaldo. Sorry.

I'D LOVE TO SEE BARCA AND MAN U IN THE FINAL :)

It all boils down to greed and domination

I'm doing my cousins' reaction paper and she gave me four topics. First is the CARP program, second is Population Growth, third is Food shortage: acts of nature or human mistakes, and last is Third world Development. I am so annoyed with the broad topics, there's like gazillion branches under population growth....so yeah i was kinda having hard time. So I've done two out of the four and it's just very disappointing how they all boil down to corruption. :|