Brain v Heart

I WANT TO STOP BECAUSE IF I CONTINUE WITH THIS KIND OF MINDSET, I'LL JUST END UP HURTING PEOPLE. AND I DON'T WANT THAT. BUT I CAN'T STOP BECAUSE IF I DO, I'LL END UP HURTING MYSELF.

SO NOW IM CONFUSED.

:/

Bang the Doldrums

We use bad words not because we're BAD. We use them because we want to appear strong. We want people to feel that despite all the failure we feel deep inside, we still have the courage to continue on living.

SV. Study vibes.

I'm supposed to be concentrating on my ncm NOTES because there's a quiz tomorrow. Plus, I haven't started studying for physics and pharma which both covers two topics. I'm a dead meat. I don't even know why i'm blogging right now. Hmm, let's just say i'm trying to sharpen my saw in 15 minutes (not helping though). Anyways, im stressed and i don't know why because when I look at my planner, there's nothing really to stress about. My finals schedule isn't even as cruel as before. There's just one exam in one day soooo I have no idea why I'm stressed. Lots of quizzes tomorrow but that has become a usual thing already so i'm ruling that out of the stress list.

Whatevs, break's over. Back to NCM. :|

You are my sweetest downfall

I've been really down these past days because of this problem I have which i cannot expose to the whole world. PREGNANT? hell no! :))

Anyways, I'm making this short post because while I was making this whole drama thing alone in my room and tweeting them out on twitter, two great twitter friends comforted me. They live in the other side of the world and I haven't met them in person. I was just really amazed how much they can sympathize and empathize with me. I was very surprised that they even bothered to reply to me because usually, we just chat when there's an LFC game. I guess, it's also the football love and the "you'll never walk alone" tag that connects all LFC fans out there. Well, i'm just super thankful for the virtual hugs.

The world is full of love, my dear friends. :) No need for hate.

Pharmaco....LOMO!

*hello eyebags :P

sabaw blog title HAHA!

Anyway, Tamad to make blog posts so just to have another entry for the month of feb....Here are pictures we took during our pharma class. :>

Today, I finally submitted my Individual Case Study so now I fell so FREE.

*credits to bri for the pictures

Whaddup 2011?!

After..hmm i'm not entirely sure but i'm guessing Four years? Yeah. After four freeakin years, my dad has finally spent his Christmas and New Year at home. This was my Christmas wish last year (My personal wishes during birthdays and Christmas were/are never material) and I'm super happy about it. If there's one person I would want to see every New Year, It'd be my dad because he's the firework enthusiast and the enthusiasm is immeasurable. Whenever he's home for New Year he makes sure he has the best fireworks display in the neighborhood or the loudest. His fireworks are actually not the bongga ones you see in the sky during midnight because he likes those sinturon ni whatever type of paputoks. I personally don't like it because it's wayyy too loud for my ears to tolerate. As in after that two minute of firework explosion, my hearing stopped working for like 3 seconds. But, oh well, He's happy I'm happy, who cares if I go deaf. hahah!

The down side is that my brother wasn't here to celebrate it with us (although, he'll be in Manila on the 11th [i'm mega excited]) but I got to talk to him on the phone and that was the closest way i could celebrate New Year with him. I miss you, brother.

Anyway, I think that 2011 will be a good year (that's what i actually say every year, but y'know, It's better to hope for the better things rather than the ugly ones so, no... don't blame me) because i'm up for the whole "i'm gonna be a more responsible, healthier, wiser person this year." I really have this feeling that there are lots of wonderful things in store for me this 2011(my fingers are crossed).

So, as we all know New Year means a new beginning, a start, a time for change...And this year I plan to really change (in a better way 'fcourse). I plan to stick by my resolutions (which i will be listing and explaining in this blog entry, if i dont get tamad) and follow them no matter what. This time, i'm gonna be strict on myself. I have to impose these resolutions and read 'em over and over again so that I wouldn't forget. I realized that last year, I was such a hypocrite. I would say things to myself ( to do this, to do that) but end up not following them then at the end of the day I would just regret everything...that i should've done this rather than doing that blah blah. and that really sucks.

(resolutions in a different entry)

Yes, Katy Perry, I feel like a plastic bag,

I log in on Tumblr and see all these pictures of skinny, beautiful people....

I'm envious because i'm not as thin or as pretty

I'm sad because i can never be one.

I'm depressed because i feel insecure.

I log in on Tumblr and read all these quotes telling me to be happy with how I look...that I'm good enough.



See, the irony isn't making me feel better.


p.s. I have nothin against Tumblr. :)

You'll get by with a Smile

I think that the loneliest thing in the world is eating alone.

Food is something we should always share.. i mean it's meant to be shared. I know we've all experienced eating alone with tons of delicious food in front of us but we easily get tired of the taste because its never "that good." Having friends around and sharing a plate of pasta or a cup of coffee tastes and feels so much better than dining alone in an expensive restaurant. Even if the food is always bitin or we feel cheated off at times because a friend got a bigger piece, it's still one of those moments we treasure and love to bits.

I think that the most simple yet amazing miracle that can happen in a person's everyday life is when a random stranger says "hi!" or "goodmorning" or "have a good day!" to him/her on the road. This is the stranger who says those words with utmost care and sincerity.... (not a nice word to say but i'm gonna use it anyways) manyak boys do not count. The simplest greetings from people we do not know are those that we always tend to ignore or not give importance to because we're too self centered and selfish to even think that others actually care for us. And you should also know that it takes a lot of courage for a total stranger to greet you. Remember that Random hugs, random smiles and random HIs always save people. We all have our daily struggles but I think that it shouldn't be a reason for us to stop caring for others. I value random greetings from random people. They get me going and you know what's the best? They never fail to make me smile.

So got out there and spread your love. You don't have to .... someone. You just gotta say hi and mean it. :)

Head over feet

Have you ever had this feeling of having this great passion for studying? Like you just want to grab a book or an educational journal/magazine and read them from cover to cover and still yearn for more information?

I always have that feeling. Actually, i get that every morning of my life because i'm always (well, i'd like to believe that I am) driven to strive for my best. But wait, don't think of me as the smart-all-knowing student of the class... because i'm the exact opposite. I'm one of those students who nods in class and pretends that i'm interested in the lesson. I doodle on my planner rather than writing down notes. I'm one of the loudest in class and i sit at the back of the room so I can sleep. Yeah, that's pretty much how this semester has been and i'm quite disappointed with myself (duhh? who wouldn't?!). So, what exactly happened to the feeling of wanting to study?...As I've said, i get that feeling every morning but for some weird reason, when i enter the classroom...the feeling just fades away. It sucks, really. Because i expect myself to be a good student everyday but at the end of the day, i just get disappointed with myself. It's like a mood swing...y'know when you're at the height of something then it suddenly falls down and it annoys you because you want to go back but can't. It's tragic. AND IT HAPPENS TO ME EVERYDAY. Imagine trying to start a day off with this feeling of "this is a new day im gonna learn a lot of things" but the moment when you see school, you just wanna run back home.

I really don't know what's happening to meeeeeeeeeeee. I used to love going to school because i love learning new things. I used to love sitting in front of the class and trying my best to listen to the professor no matter how boring the lesson is. I want to be like that again. I want to have that energy and passion to go to school and learn.

Right now I feel like im going nowhere. I feel like a Mercedes-Benz being ignored. I know that i have so much in me and i can do more...i can achieve more.

I need an inspiration or something that will motivate me to start again. I need that passion back.

(I know it's Christmas break and talking about school isn't really a good idea because i'm supposed to relax and chill, but i can't help it! BECAUSE I FEEL SO USELESS AND STUPID.)

Let this go

What a nice way of starting the morning :| :| :|

oh, hello November 1. You are cursed.

So much for family bonding.....

asdfghjsfw!!!!!!

CAN I JUST SAY THAT I LOVE MY LIFE SO SO MUCH? :>
thank you friends
thank you family
thank you God.

We're gonna party like it's 2012

yeah ok I know i havent blogged since foreverrrr... sorry im just really lazy and i'd like to spend my free time doing some other things like updating my ipod, catching up with my friends, drinking coffee in starbucks while writing down random things on my planner etc.

and im here right now just to say that hahahah!

and im living life right now, i can feel it.

LIVE, LOVE AND LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH

I'm living the "cortado" life and im actually liking it! I might not be excelling in school as much as last year but i know that im better now and not being wayyy too serious in school makes me appreciate life more.

(and to you.... thank you for your smile because...just because)

True Colors are Beautiful like a Rainbow

I was at the mall the whole day last Thursday (this blog post was supposed to come out last week but honestly, i haven't been really in the "blogging mood") and I decided to take like super random pictures. So, here are some selected pictures from that day and I decided to arrange them by color according to the ROYGBIV pattern, only there's no IV :P

Red. It reminds me of passion, of love, of blood - Not that i'm into gory stuff, it's just that blood reminds me of surgery-related things and being a surgeon is like my ultimate dream!

RED

It's one of those art stuff from Starbucks

......It's the Cafe Havana umbrellas

.....It's the giant flower from the walls of glorietta

It's the transport bus, really helpful to those people who commute everyday.

Orange. I honestly don't like orange unless it's beside something that's apple green (it's my fave). The only thing i remember when i see something orange is the fruit orange. OKAAAYY LAME.

ORANGE

It's breadtalk! my favorite bread store! :)) The original Floss and beckham and cheese are my favorites! yum!

Its a bus again, but orange this time!

Yellow. It's PINOY PRIDE because of Ninoy and Cory Aquino - a constant reminder to always love my country, to support and defend (to those who criticize) it.

YELLOW

Chairs from one of the restaurants in Greenbelt 5

The giant Swatch watch in Greenbelt 5 with Ninoy and Cory on it

yeah ok, very random. Garbage bag :P

Green. It's the environment. You have no idea how much I love trees! I super use scratch papers for my school notes okay (hence, the blog name). People should save trees and the environment in general. Climate Change angers me especially those people who don't give a damn about it. I mean it's okay if you think that climate change is just a myth or whatsoever but at least respect those people who are trying their best to save the world. ( i'm not hitting anyone here :))

I really love the Ayalas for planting trees around the malls

The Church in Greenbelt 3

i can't survive three days without SB :\

Apple green. that's my favorite color over there! HAHA

Random again hahah :P

Blue. It reminds me of my dad who works as a captain of a cargo ship. When I see the beach, he's the first thing i remember... thinking if he's alright and safe wherever he is. :) AND i hate it but it also reminds me of my fourth year research paper which was about how climate change affects the marine ecosystem of the Pacific Ocean. haha yeah, i had to know scientific stuff about corals and such :)) but oh well. i loved that paper! :P

It's What Hat, had my first ever taste of Froyo there! haha. and it was a very unforgettable experience too with arcee, kaycee and aya! the boy selling yema? :\ hmmmm

I have no idea what building that is BUT it has blue-ish windows so it's here :P

It's the fountain in the middle of greenbelt 3( 2nd flr :P) i forgot the name of the person who designed it! ughhh! i remember reading it in a magazine . FAIL.

Powerbooks! blue an orange hahha. I love that place, it's like my library since when i have nothing else to do in the mall i go there, grab a book and sit somewhere and read :P HAHAH. I usually get art and photography books!

so there that's it! This blog post is fail. I'm in a rush right now and i'm really REALLY not in the mood to blog anything recently. :( :\

and i really just want to share this quote from my friend in high school "There are few colors in the world, God should make more" heehee. SORRY BABAW BUT I FIND IT AMUSING! AHHA.

Til summer comes around

Holyyyy!!

I can't believe my last post was about El Clasico and that was last month! oh my, I haven't touched my blog for like two weeks? This is what summer classes do.

Well, it's a bit fun though because i get to see friends in school and have kwentuhans and all but I'm just missing out on basically everything that is related to summer. I miss my midnight dose of football, the beach, the pool, the bikinis, the road trips, the bum moments, the movie marathons, catching up with other friends...

hay nako! leche yan!!! basta, live the present moment na!!! diyos ko po, bahala ka na sa akin!!! :((

I'm better off when i hit the bottom

Problems are like **** you find on the road and the worst part is when you accidentally step on em. We're all susceptible. They're inevitable. Sometimes they come in the most unexpected time and become our worst enemy. We try to solve our problems everyday, we push ourselves to the limit just to make things okay again. We deprive ourselves of happiness and learn to suffer in silence. This is probably because we don't want others to be involved. We don't want our loved ones to suffer the same pain so we isolate ourselves and let go. When problems pile up, it become hard for us to stay on track, we get lost on our way and fall off. We give our best to figure out how to solve the problems but they just won't go away. But you know what the funny thing is that no matter how enormous the problems we face everyday, we never fall down on our knees. We try and try to get things right. It's like when gravity pulls you down, even if it's so strong, you still have this thing to hang on to, to prevent the fall. Sometimes, we hold on to faith, to love, to hope, to people's kindness, to pride... we hold on to basically anything we can find just to firmly stand on both feet. But why can't we just have ourselves beaten up by the problems we have? Why can't we just surrender? I know we all have different answers for that but the reason why i don't want to give up is because I know that eventually it will pass as long as faith is there. We believe and so it happens. Nothing is quite impossible. When we choose to be positive, everything changes, when we live our lives chances are, the negative aura disappears and everything brightens up. just as long as we believe, as long as we choose to stand, to love, to embrace change, to live reality and believe in dreams.. we will never fall. In fact we'll learn to grow and we change for the better. No matter how many problems we have everyday, we still remember that giving up means you're a loser and standing tall would mean and feel greater than that of winning for with problems solved...a new and better life emerges in your horizon

I found this in my Starbucks planner last year. Honestly, i don't quite remember when and why i wrote this but it was written at the first page of November. I know it sound weird and most of what i said are redundant.. but i like it hahaha :)) Product of emo-ness but seriously i dont remember why i wrote such things :))

Im blogging because 2

I DONT WANT TO STUDY FOR ANATOMY :((

btw, i got to tie three cherry stems today. I dont know why that fascinates me. Pat is to blame. :) HAHHAHAH. hihihihi ;))

MUSCULAR SYSTEM, PLEASE COOPERATE WITH ME.

This and that

Not so much blog posts this month, sarrreh :( school's been a bitch and im not really in the mood. So to just add another post for January...here comes the randomness.

*Putamen! I <3 Anatomy
- I had to treat Eya a venti java chip coz i lost the bet
- I argue with Arcee almost every 30 minutes but I still love her! Great minds fight a lot!
- I made this bet with aya and john; the person who gets the highest average for midterms has to treat the lowest. (Starbucks, 'f course)
- I also have this bet with Gador, Marga, Eya, and Kaycee; the person who gets the highest score for NCM has to treat the lowest.
- I save more money when i was in high school. what happened to me?
- I hate my nihongo subject! I do not understand anything.
- Barcelona remains undefeated in la liga, while LFC (EPL) is struggling to get into the top 4. I still love the reds :>
-Arsenal and Man U tonight. Fabregas! :> <3

*putamen is a round structure located at the base of the forebrain

Cold hot air balloon

First week of second sem was such a roller coaster ride. Nothing else can explain it.

It was such a busy week and the schedule is just pamatay. torture.

so the highlight of the week would be our NCM and RLE class last thursday. It was awesome! I thought at first it would be boring and the CIs would be all serious...but they weren't! I learned a lot. :) I'm actually very excited for next week because we get to interview a patient..OMG! first ever "nursing" experience! hahah.

my brain is not working, i dunno what else to type :(

I just wanna say that i had fun the whole week :)

W.A.F.

ceaelomina: /m\
ceaelomina: ai baliktad.waf.
ceaelomina:
Sydney Furio: failll
Bernice Fetalvero: waf?
ceaelomina: people say it now.
Bernice Fetalvero: its
Bernice Fetalvero: what a friend
Sydney Furio: hahah cea doesnt know kasi
Bernice Fetalvero: so anong connect niya sa inverted
Sydney Furio:
Bernice Fetalvero:
ceaelomina: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh. sorry, i think being antisocial has an effect on me now.
Bernice Fetalvero: salita ng salita di naman alam
Bernice Fetalvero: ))))
ceaelomina: sorry po
ceaelomina:
ceaelomina: tatahimik na ko
ceaelomina:

Starbucks planner 2010

Thank you Mandee for tweeting about this last night. I've been waiting for the planner since the mid of october and now IT'S FINALLY OUT. Unfortunately, i have no picture of the planner since people are prohibited from taking pictures of the planner inside the SB stores. Is the planner pretty? well, for me it's okay. that's all i can say. It's pretty much the same as last year's except that the cover is somehow velvet-y..uhh you know how felt paper feels like when you touch it? yeah it's like that! =)) haha. It comes in three different covers (nope, not the colors)..I think the covers show the different stages of coffee-making. I'm not entirely sure. :| :)) Another thing that was changed was the layout. Remember how the past planners have horizontal spaces for each day? Now it's vertical, like the belle de jour power planner, only not as detailed. It's still simple and elegant. I prefer the horizontal one though. So, in order to get the planner you need to buy 9 holiday featured beverages (9 stickers) and 8 starbucks beverage of your choice 'cept for bottled beverages, water and fruit juices (8 stickers). That's 17 stickers! :> and i have good news! PEPPERMINT MOCHA IS BACK!!! I LOVE THIS ONE! :)) The planner includes discount coupons :> yey!

I;m so excited for Christmas! When i entered Starbucks awhile ago i felt like it was already Christmas! The red color and snowy decorations excite me! :)