My Scratch Paper: Before I study for Ana

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Before I study for Ana

The last two weeks of school is going to be one HELL of a roller coaster ride and right now I'm not on the vertical loop so i get the chance to blog. YAHOO!

My sister is right, I think I'm being too hard on myself. Like how i was so annoyed at the thesis defense because it wasn't as hard as i though it'd be. I mean, If I'm like an ordinary student I'd be happy about that, right? But I'm not. Well for one...I really worked hard on that thesis (oh my gosh, those two sleepless-ish nights) and i needed something to challenge it. but the defense was useless so no..no challenge.

But seriously, I'm not all that TENSE AND WORRIED ABOUT STUFF. I just simply CARE about things. AMP! that didn't make sense! haha

I don't know what to blog about anymore but the gist is that I'M MISSING OUT ON LIFE AND I JUST WANT TO GO OUT OF TOWN AND FORGET ABOUT NURSING. I know i took the word nursing lightly when i was in high school BUT man! everytime i hear that word i just wanna scream. The stress of the course can kill me anytime.

So i just hope i can survive this week and next week. I don't know what's gonna happen to my finals. Just thinking about the RLE return demo gives me the goosebumps, It's like my worst nightmare the only difference is that I know it's gonna happen.

I'm starting to really DISCERN if i should still pursue medicine.

So, It's all about God bless, goodlucks, brain, coffee and food for next week.

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“We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected’s just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.”

“Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.”

“We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.”